Song

A song is the same as human being,or should I say living being. It need both rhythm and lyric for it to be a song. Both of them are very important. Rhythm resembles the soul of the song while the lyric resembles the body of the song. Can you imagine a song without rhythm or a song without lyric?

A song without lyric will be like a wandering soul. It don't have any solid form. Maybe someday it will just disappear to the thin air. The feeling the composer want to share cannot be conveyed efficiently.

A song without rhythm will be like a robot. It don't have its own thought and expression. Everything is programmed for the beginning. The message the writer want to deliver cannot be sent efficiently.

Both lyric and rhythm should compatible to each other. The mood and the feeling should probably be the same. You can't just put a feminine soul in a guy body or a masculine soul in a girl. It will turn out to be weird.

That's all of what I think of "song". All these are just barely my own thoughts.

Walking Forward

Walking forward......
It have been 5 years and I feel like I'm still standing at the same spot, never been moving even a single step. Watching everyone that I know and near to me walking forward, I feel happy for them as they are able to move forward and able to keep on evolving themselves to become a better person. But somehow I feel lonely and insecure. Everyone pass by and move forward. All I can do is just standing there and watch their back. Back then,I told myself that someday I'll be able to walk side by side with them.

Am I able to start to walk again? Will the day come? Is it because I never tried hard or I'm not even trying? What I can do is that keep on asking myself the questions over and over. But I never try to seek for those answers. I'm really happy from them, as they are able to move on from their yesterday. Maybe they had gone through many hardships that I didn't know for them to achieve what they have today.

It's better for someone else to be born to this world instead of me, as what I do is just waste and rot away the life given to me, and draging everyone down. I'm so useless and weak. I feel lucky to have known all of them, but it's their bad luck to have known me.

Adults = Mature?

I have a question for all here. Human tend to get mature through the growing process, but why it seems that the more mature(or should I use the word 'age') they are, the longer they hold their grudge on, and they tend to remember all the bad things about the person they hate and what they have done to them. Sometimes the grudge is carried over from one generation to the next(just like what happen in some of the TVB dramas).

But, look at the children, they get along again in a short time after they fight or quarrel. No matter how serious the problem is, they tend to be friend to each other again. The time needed to get along again becomes longer as we get older.

So, why is there such difference exist? Is it the difference in the problem that they face? Is it adults are more mature and children are more innocent? Is it because the adults know more about the reality? Is it because adults feel less secured?

It is so rare to hear that children fight each other until serious injuries. But what about adults? Hurting each other with things that are able to hurt. From sharp weapons up to military weapons. Fighting with each other just to satisfy their own desire(territory, fame, wealth, etc), causing problems to all in the end. Adults can be consider to be more educated(religion teaching, knowledge, moral and ethics) than children, so why all these happens? Corruptions, crimes, wars and more. Why is that the history keep on repeating the same thing over and over again? Don't they feel bored with the same thing that repeat for thousand years?

In this case, should we use the word 'childish' on adults and 'mature' on children?

Coincidence or Fate??

Here I would like to talk about the things that happened between me and my best friend, Stephen. There are quite many coincidence happened between us. The coincidences began since the first day of me entering MMU Malacca(February 2006). That time we were having Foundation course for one year(3 trimester) before we can proceed to our desired Degree course. The first coincidence was that we were assigned to the same orientation group. (My memories about the Orientation Week wasn't that clear.) Then I get to know that we lived in the same place, Emerald Park(sort of apartment for rent to MMU students), the same building and same block. I lived a floor higher than Stephen. One more coincidence is that both of us stayed in the first room of our respective unit(the room nearest to the main door of the unit). Both of us are IT students and there are some slight connection between our desired Degree course. (Mine is Software Engineering & Game Design while Stephen's is Software & Animation). Both of the courses are only available in MMU Cyberjaya.

The first class started the next day the Orientation Week ended. I attended my first class(Mathematics subject if not wrong). Someday during the first week, I get to know that we were in the same group section, PT40, which means we will meet each other until the end of the Foundation course. The first week ended. I bought bus ticket to go back to my hometown, Ayer Tawar(Perak). I reached Malacca Sentral. While waiting for the bus, i saw Stephen. He was also waiting for bus to go back to Ipoh(Perak). The bus we took is not the same but both of them departed at the same time, 9p.m.

The first trimester ends soon, we planned to move to the other block to stay with our friend(big brother), Siong. Our application approved. Second trimester, we stayed in our new room. Only two of us, although the room was supposed to be shared by three person. Third trimester, the room still shared by both of us. During the third trimester, we need to decide what Degree course to take as this trimester is the last trimester of the Foundation course. Most of our friends choose the course that they like since the beginning of the Foundation course. Me and Stephen also the same. Knowing that both of us would go to MMU Cyberjaya for our Degree course, we applied for hostel together. First trimester of Degree course, both of us managed to get place in the hostel, in the same room.

This is all that I'm able to remember for now. So, are these all just coincidences? Or fate? Or did I think too much? Anyway, what I'm clear about is that I will not meet Stephen if I didn't insist on going to MMU to study in the first place.

The thing that I regret the most

When I 'm 9 or 10 years old, my mother gave me the choice to choose either to learn piano or drawing. That time, I thought that piano is a very girly stuff. So i choose to learn drawing. But in the end, I didn't get anything from drawing also. Now I really really regret about the decision I made 10 years ago. Thinking of playing the song I like with piano makes me feel regret. Regret regret. T_T

Every little decision do affect our life. We might meet with different person, experience, etc. depend on the decision we made.